Oh dear

I'm quite disappointed in myself. I've finished another assignment, and where I feel the majority of the content is sound, and well argued, the 'back-up' research was not proven very well, thus the basis of my entire proposition seems weak and easily criticised. The tiniest of details can make a great deal of impact. The presentation of my assignment was ridiculously poor for my own personal standards. No graphics on the cover page, I even forgot page numbers, let alone a contents page! I'm extremely tired from sitting up all night working on this. Even though I actually enjoyed part of it.. figuring out the costs, composition, coverage, financial aspects etc, as difficult as it was to finally get my head around . Because, with finance at least, you know when you have achieved a correct answer. You have a theory or a rule to guide you, and thus you accomplish something in return. Whereas the remaining majority of my assignment is pure arguement and research. This is a subjective and difficult thing to master. I can form an arguement flawlessly if I have a personal interest in the subject or a driving force to keep me going. But this assignment lost all context in my mind. I was tirelessly pursuing a conclusion, trying to fulfill grade boundaries, trying to fill a word count. That's not what an assignment should be at all, hence I am disappointed with myself. The work was done because I had a time limit, not because I want to produce a quality piece of written research that proves my academic and professional skills are of high quality. The work could have been done months ago, and then I could have spent time perfecting it. But alas, I'm always this way. (Although never quite this disappointed..) I think it's because this is one of the few remaining pieces of work to hand in of my entire degree. After this I have very little room to improve. If that's not a big enough kick up the backside I don't know what is. I'll either be stubborn and react with "well if I'm destined for that grade, so be it" or desperately panic and rush for a higher grade. Either way I won't finish my degree with honour. Ohhhhhh. Lack of sleep makes me pensive. Ttfn. X