Wednesday, 9 January 2008

N-n-new year!

Need to lose weight - the cellulite stricken thighs have only just been realised. Eugh. I just see lumps O_o. When did that happen!? Was that my Christmas curse? Gee, thanks a million Santa.
Also thinking I need that ever glorified flat stomach so I can finally wear empire line dresses with confidence.
Need to chuck out all unnecessary belongings. Can't keep lugging them from A to B. I.e. old f.r.i.e.n.d.s pyjamas from like '98 that don't fit properly anymore, adios. Moving from home to Storthes, and Storthes to here has shown me I'm nothing more than a neurotic forgetful dreamer. I have tonnes of shi'ite that won't benefit me in anyway anymore.. I just look clingy.
Need to make regular money some way independently without fooling myself I'm in any state to sell myself. Don't joke now. Santa's already proved I can't do that this year.
I.e. eBaying rejected clothing,
picking up my art again - canvases etc ? It happens to some I know
Tutoring of some kind? English Literature? Counselling? (What on earth do I know that I can pass on? I'm starting to believe I'm not intelligent in any way. How embarassing.. why am I at Uni again? errr. ) I can teach people how to be sarcastic and analytical. Maybe I should write a book, What Your Myspace Says About You. I'm pretty competent at judging those by now.

Note I didn't say go back to work as a money provider - that's not a regular salary unfortunately. At least not at a 3rd rate wonky shoe shop.
Hmm what else can I do to raise funds? I don't have any practical skills really that are beneficial? And no musical instruments anymore either.. Hmm.

I guess I'm just going to have to sell something? My car? Eek. Ha at the rate my g'parents have tried to sell my Mum's car I guess that's not worth the hassle.

I took a regular old skills/personality quiz today for a cv enhancement website, and shock of all shocks I was told a suitable career would be an advertising account executive. I'm thinking I do have something going for me then. Just need to find that perfect little placement that billions of genuinely intelligent people have probably applied for leaving me only a few personality traits to hope will get me a job - mainly desperation. That works for some. I've seen it.

Okay time to do something. Taaaa

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